i know, it's been a long time, but today i need to pour my heart out. and there's no one i can talk to or have a shoulder to cry on.
i can't find any words in the world to describe these emotions going through me.
i stayed up late at night to watch the final Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows premiere (which was in London, and which i just got back fro holidays few days before the premiere itself, damn!). and i cannot believe how much tears i bled last night/this morning.
i know its not completely over yet, since the film is not released until next friday. but it is sorta 'over' for the time being. i watched the premiere live online, and i saw each and every actor and actresses who has dedicated their 11 years of life in the Harry Potter franchise, from the books to the films. more than 18 thousand of fans turned up at the Trafalgar Square, stayed 4 days in rain and sunshine to see, congratulate, and to celebrate the final Harry Potter film. every year at every HP premiere, there was rain. yesterday, it rained in the morning, but it was sunny sunshine when the premiere started. what a great day to have for the final premiere.
i was jumping excitedly on my chair when rupert grint, who the beloved, my beloved, ron weasley in the film, the first who turned up at the premiere. he looked gorgeous and handsome as always. (no doubt i fall head over heels with his suit and new hairdo, and his smile) then i saw (she came to the premiere much later, but i want to acknowledge her first) the beautiful emma watson, who played the his loved one hermione granger. she was stunning.
then there was.... (not in order, i tried to remember though, but i was too hyped up; and i cant believe i remembered all the names so bloody well!)
the phelps twins, who played the funniest lovable weasley twins;
matt lewis who played 'zero-to-hero' neville;
evanna lynch who played the loony but adorable and witty luna lovegood;
bonnie wright who played the pretty tomboy ginny weasley;
tom felton who played the arrogant, the coward but a lovely heart draco malfoy;
warwick davies who played the teacher, prof flitwick, and the globin, griphook (with his beautiful family);
jason issacs, who played the loser dad and death eater (although, i find jason bloody good!) lucius malfoy;
domhall gleeson, who played the oldest brother weasley, bill weasley;
clemence poesy, who played his wife, the gorgeous french girl, fleur delacour
julie walters (my most adored, and one of my favourite writer and actress) who played the rock-and-roll, loving mother, mrs weasley;
mark williams, who played the braveheart father, mr weasley;
david thewli, who played the lanky-loving-wolf, prof lupin;
natalia tena, who played the funnily-gorgeous-hair-changing-witch, tonks;
michael gambon, who played the ever so loved prof dumbledore; (lets not forget richard harris, the original prof dumbledore)
ralph fiennes, who played the no-nose voldemort (he was brilliant!);
robbie coltrane, who played the lovable, kind-hearted half giant, care of magical creatures teacher, prof hagrid (yes he is a professor!);
helena bonham carter (praise the Lord, she is gorgeous! my other favourite actress) who played the devilish-evil-crazy-lunatic bellatrix lestrange;
and of course, alan rickman, the much beloved unexpected hero (to those who read the books, you know why) who played prof snape.
then out comes mr daniel radcliffe, the brave, the hero and one and only mr harry potter.
i think i missed out a few, but these are the ones i remembered most, sadly i didn't see the wonderful dame maggie smith, who played the brilliant prof mcgonagall.
the crowd was dying to get their autographs. they were screaming, chanting etc etc. then....
the beautiful JK Rowling, the queen, the writer, the imaginative, and the creator of the Harry Potter masterpiece. the crowd exploded!
i would die to get her autograph.
okay im going to fast forward now...
the red carpet was brilliant. the fans were cheering, the casts looked brilliant...but it all comes down to the special moment out of the whole of HP premieres. their speeches.
It started off with the guy from Warner Bros. , who gave the opportunity harry potter to be filmed.
for the first time, steve kloves, the screen writer, the guy who Jo Rowling trusted for his work, who turned up for the premiere, at last. LOL. (i did not really like him because he changed some of the most important lines for Ron Weasley! i swear i think he hates him... haha)
then there was the speech from the Three Great Davids:
the producer, david heyman, the guy who made a promise to Jo Rowling, the guy who believed that the harry potter will be loved by many, the guy who found the golden trio, and most of all the guy who took care of them and watch all of them grow, like their own dad.
then there there was the co-producer and his best mate, david baron, who also did the same as heyman.
then there was david yates, the director of the last 4 films. (although i did not like him at first, i slightly dislike him now as well, but i swear, i think he did it. he made the final film the greatest one of all time)
at this point, their speeches made me teared up a little.
dan radcliffe made his speech next. his was lighter and brighter. his speech made me smile and im so happy with him convincing the fans that harry potter is never going to end... (which is true..) his thanks to the three davids, and jo rowling made me emotional again: “
"I DONT THINK THIS STORY ENDS TONIGHT… BECAUSE EVERY PERSON WILL CARRY THIS STORY THROUGH THEIR LIVES."
em watson's speech was the one made me cried more... that's because she cried and lost her words. i couldnt believe she still able to pick right back up and finish it. she thank the 3D's, for given her something to learn throughout the films, for having her, and to let her be hermione on her own way. then to Jo Rowling, she cried more...(i cried more too), for writing hermione and for giving emma to be hermione just as she written her. she lost her words again... then she thank rupert for making her laugh, for being her brother..same goes to dan as well.
rupert's speech was the one that break my heart. his speech was not perfect, but as the matter fact the simplest. the fact that he is lost without HP made me cry, the fact that HP has changed half of his life...and the fact that he turned to Em and Dan, and said "you two...i love you, i really do." i cried more. but it was great, cuz i laughed at the part where he said to Jo "...the things you've done for ginger people!"
Jo jo jo. the goddess, the queen. her's made me feel like dying....i can't explain how she did. but i can tell you her last words were:
"WHETHER YOU COME BACK BY FILM OR BY PAGE, HOGWARTS WILL ALWAYS BE THERE TO WELCOME YOU HOME."
im gone from there.
you want to know how i felt, pls watch (mind you, its lengthy but you wouldn't even notice when you're started crying)
Part 1Part 2i want to dedicated this post to harry potter, jk rowling, the fans etc
because one, i feel that there is not enough appreciation for the books, the films, the cast...
two, i have grown up with these books, the films and the cast as well
three, i have learnt so much from Jo Rowling.
it sounds silly, but i dont care. if you're a huge fan just as i am, you know what i mean. the tears i cried was the happiness and the sadness of the end. at the same time, i feel bloody annoyed that Jo isn't going to write anymore of HP. or for the fact that rupert and emma doesn't think their in love with each other ( you should know by now, i really love ron/hermione and rupert/emma) and worse of all, i am bloody angry that alot of people hates ron weasley, not just the actor, but the character as well.
i want this post that i am writing worth something. maybe give a change, and give a chance to people to enjoy harry potter as much as i do. i want people to love HP as much as i do. i want HP to last forever. i want to buy everything about HP. i want my kids to read HP books, and watch the films. I want my kids and their kids to love HP. i want to belong in the HP world.
i want to be in hogwarts. i admit! i do.
i want owls to sent me letters.
i want to fly a broomstick and play quidditch.
i want to have potion classes instead of chemistry.
i want care for magical creatures instead of PE.
i want to to learn defense against the dark arts with prof snape.
i want prof mcgonagall to be my mentor.
i want hagrid to teach me about the creatures.
i want to meet dumbledore and teach me all he knows.
i want to punch draco malfoy. i want to eat the sweets from honey dukes.
i want to talk crazy with luna and pull pranks with the weasley twins.
i want to go to their WWW shop.
i want to go to the Yull Ball and dance with viktor krum (atucally not really).
i want to learn about herbology with neville instead of biology.
i want to be in gryffindor.
i want to ive in the burrow with the weasleys.
i want to pull the sword out of the sorting hat.
i want to learn irish from seamus finnigan.
i want to have hedwig and crookshanks as my pets.
i want to ride a dragon.
i want to ride buckbeak.
i want to meet sirius black.
i want to be crazy as bellatrix. (not really..but it will be fun)
i want to meet dobby.
i want to discover about muggles with mr weasley.
i want to cook with mrs weasley.
i want to read books with hermione and safe magical creatures.
i want to be brave like harry.
i want to be scarred of spiders with ron.
i want to best friends with harry, ron and hermione.
JK Rowling taught me millions of things. she has created these characters that defines her. she created those characters for kids to look up too:
harry taught me to be brave and fight for your loved ones. he taught me to rely on your friends when you needed them, to believe in things that are possible. to fight against the darkness.
hermione taught me that it's okay to be clever and be beautiful at the same time, to fight for rights, to be discipline, to help your friends when you can. she taught me to be brave as well, to be confident that things will turn okay... if you plan first. haha.
neville taught to realise the inner you, to stretch out your wings and be the hero from a zero, to believe in myself.
luna taught me that it is okay to be loony at times, and be yourself. to dress outrageously and not care what others think. well, its because no one will dress like her. she taught me to believe in something that doesn't exist, to imagine things.
the weasley twins taught me to be fun and loving, to pull pranks and make others laugh.
ginny taught me to be a tomboy, and be pretty too.
mrs weasley taught me to be loving and caring.
but most of all, ron taught me the most.
i want to tell you why ron weasley is my favourite character. he is like me, and i am like him. he is hot tempered, fear of losing someone you love, easily envious but humble. he taught me that it is okay to break the rules sometimes, to relax a little. he taught me to stand up for someone you love. he taught me even if you walk out from your friends, find your heart and find your way back. he taught me that it doesn't matter if you fall in love with someone, eventhough he/she doesn't love back. he taught to be there for your friends, to cry for your family. he is not as good looking as harry. he is not the brave one as harry. but he is loyal.
to be honest, he is actually brave. he is the knight, he is the hero. he sacrified himself for harry, he let hermione win in almost all of their arguments. ron and hermione complete each other. they have the qualities that each does not have. they bicker, yes, but they love it. thats what keeps them together. he lets a horcrux define him and his insecurities. but he fought back. yes, he ran away. but he came back. he is never a coward. ron is the rock of the friendship and his family. he holds them on, and keep them together.
ron is real.
Jk Rowling taught me to love magic. Jo made me believe it. i believe in magic. just as kids believe in santa and fairytales. just mine is more...in a way 'advance' with wands, and sorting hats, goblins, dragons, spells, time turners, moving pictures, love potions, polyjuice potions...everything i can think of in harry potter.
She taught me that to do the things you love most. She taught me not be afraid to imagine.
I don;t know what else to say. She is my hero, and one of my role model. Harry Potter is part of childhood, a part of me.
I am writing this because I do not know who to share it with. And I feel bloody lonely when I cried, when there is no one to cry with me in my bedroom, but with the fans out there at Trafalgar Square yesterday. I wished I was there. Somewhere in this world, whoever you are,I hope you are reading this, and I hope this changed you mind. Although, I can never thought someone could change someone's mind. it is hard.
There are still plenty of people around the world who hates Harry Potter. Some falls asleep reading or watching the films (just like my dad. lol) But maybe someday, Harry potter books is what our next generation will be learning in school. That will be just awesome. And maybe someday, hopefully, as the last film comes out, they will realise that Harry Potter series were the greatest thing that happened throughout the world...that they might love the books, the films, and love ron weasley/rupert grint. lol.
And you know what, I do not care about you lots who hate Harry potter. Well, shame on you if you do. Too bad. Cuz you're really missing the magic.
are you listening?
btw still crying like mad. but its okay. its okay to cry for something that has been your life forever.
i do not know what to look forward to after this....
read some more harry potter you reckon? me think so too. :)
lets hope she writes some more. (or maybe rupert and emma gets married in the future. that will be awesome. haha. my wish anyway)
i am a proud harry potter fan. Thank you Jo Rowling!